football sweat in the morning...

what a feeling :D

ckk..
i could still remember the tone of her voice on the phone.
i cant get it out of my head...
it was filled with disappointment...

maaf ka...
adin salah...
but maybe if u really know what was going on, maybe ud understand...
maybe...
cos things are not as they seem...

tapi sama aja.. maaf ka..

fuck...
completely froze my ass during the call...

failed..
i knew it..
sorry yo, sorry ka..

gonna celebrate dio's birthday tomorrow with his parents and some friends at the pavilion...
dio just put me in charge of inviting those 'some' friends to dinner.

i've only come up the with a small number of people who are most closest to him:
me (hehe), elang, wening, lucky, ameng, ditto, okky, vivi and... eka... (!!!)..

damn.. how do i get eka to come without me being seen by her. what the hell am i suppose to do...
i want her to come for the sake of a friend's birthday,
but she wont come cos im going,
but i want her to come because she doesnt have much time left in malaysia and she has the right to enjoy every moment that she has left here cos unfortunately this idiot has deprived her of that benefit...

akhh...
my hands are trembling im scared to call her...
scared to ask her to come to the dinner...
(gay kali kau din!)

aduh..
maaf kali ka...